14/02/09

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

mama pegi bertugas kat tasik. smj ada merentas desa..ayah p hanta myvi utk direpair..ma accident aritu masa nk anta brg sket utk aku kat derga. isk. tergejut aku dgr. kalo camtu, aku rela lg mama tak hanta pape..risauuuu la. bila dah dok seperate nih, i always wonder whats goin on kat rumah. kalo pape terjadi, payah laa..pagi tadi, kul 5 ade terjaga sbb wan terjatuh. we sleept in my room as usual. all of a sudden i heard a sound and i woke up to find wan on the floor. on gud days, she can get up by herself without falling. but more often than not, what are the odds of her falling? yeah, quite high. sometimes she's pushing her luck..a little too brave. but that's what my granma is like ever since.

just yesterday, she told mama that she woke up by herself, went in the toilet by herself n prepared herself for subuh prayer...why? because I WAS ASLEEP. as she said. obviously not. i helped her brush her teeth. she calls up my name even silently and almost whishpery, i would wake up as though a thunder strikes. that's how a light sleeper i am. anyway, my point is thatt, wan is getting forgetful and needs someone to accompany her. when im gone to derga, mama n ayah go to work, wan is left alone for a few hours. thank god mama hired a maid who keeps the eye on the house n wan. wan usually doesnt do much anyway. she usually only gets up when she needs the toilet. that's the biggest worry off all. but she's performing so much better compared to last time. alhamdulillah...

anyway, anip's asleep and so is wan. me, im just chillin..ptg ni blk mahaad. the girls asked me to buy them radix's ice cream. lol. insyaAllah. at the moment, im also browsing through the net to search for Fi'il dlm Bhsa Arab. aduuuh..it's reaaaaaally tough! just to memorise itt...ugh. it took me a long time to remember verbs in french and for arabic, there's 14 of them! all words are different for a girl, a boy, a group of girls n a group of boys. it's oke. if the others can do it, so can i. u know, the other girls were all from skolah agama..i never knew it'd be an issue but they found it weird. they'd expected me to come from a skola agama too. now, to come n think abt it, never mind skolah agama. i never was sent to kls fardhu ain! Ya Allah, terukknye aku. takpe la..aku masok tahfiz ni, bleh la aku kampoi sket2..it's never too late. Syukur, tuhan sayangg kat aku yg hina ni lagi.

ape lagi yer...ha, upu fasa ke2, aku dah isi..1st choice, Seni Reka Bentuk dan Alam Sekitar, UIAM :D ade org tgu result spm klua dlu...oke je.
oke la..aku nk masak ketam plak ni. yumm :D