systematic vs systemic.

بِسْــــــــــــــــــــــمِ اﷲِارَّحْمَنِ ارَّحِيم

kalau kite tgk background Imam Al-Ghazali, as soon as ayah beliau meninggal dunia, dia dan adeknya were handed to an alim utk berguru.

rupa2nya, kebanyakkan org dulu2 anggap (at least, the province where he was at) guru itu lebih penting dari seorang ayah.

haa. seram tiba2.
the reason being is that, seorang bapa hanya providekan a child's temporal needs while a teacher provides for a child akhirah's needs in order to survive against all the odds hereafter, wallahualam.
why? because Ilm is the business. and that's how they roll. subhanallah.

macam mana ya hidup berguru. i'm too far into the system. but yet, too close to the edge of losing it.

 .........................(tiba2 dah mati akal. xtau nak ckp apa).

all i can say is that, it's a scary world out there. perfect for full tawakkal in Allah.
right after spm, kita fikir kita dah free. lepas spm, pandai2 la nak buat apa...so i was told.
rupa2nya tak. universiti dicari utk menimba ilmu regardless kene hutang dan terikat. ilmu punya pasal kan. ade short cut kah utk menimba ilmu? library bersepah what.
inilah cara "berguru" the conventional way that the world expects. at least, in my world.
bila dah selami college life, we would think that haa lepas grad, pandai2 la buat apa lepas tu..
dah free dah.
tp rupa2nya, tak jugak. nak cari keje..sengaja cari system to be stuck in.
sgt bad kah system ni?

is this a lament? hmm. not really. let's call it a reality check.
so, what do i get from this reality check? - gunakan system sebagai alat, bukan matlamat. kita tak stuck dlm system 24/7 dan selama2nya. kita ada dan kene cari lapang...ateeqa nasha kene curi masa and run with it.

if you can defeat the system, join the system. work with the system. move with the system...to your benifit. inshallah.